Guru Maharaj Ji / Malaga, Spain / 3 - 26 - 1978
Prem Rawat (Maharaji) Malaga Spain 1978

Dear premies, it was really incredible yesterday to have Holi. It was more than just regular Holi, regular paint-throwing or mudthrowing or whatever, however they do it. With premies, with our understanding, it always makes the difference.

What does that really signify? When I left the Holi site, and I was driving up on that road, there were a lot of people there who didn't understand what was going on. They were sitting on their cars watching this. Then the crowd sort of started to break up and I was driving and there were a lot of buses. So I was honking my horn in case somebody walked out there. And these guys were completely amazed. You could see their lips and they just watched the jeeps go by. Because they couldn't understand what was happening. How could people - and it looked like a lot of people - how could that many people just be standing there, and this one person be on the stage and throwing water?

You could see what their logic, their reasoning, was that they were trying to put together, maybe thinking, "Oh, this is a fancy water display." But that wasn't happening. Because water was purposely being thrown on everybody. And so it was like, "What was the reason? What was the purpose? What was really happening?"

But then, at the same time, because we had just done the Holi, it was really incredible. Everybody in the jeep was just saying, "Man, that was really beautiful. That was really incredible."

And this is what clarity does. This is what the proper understanding brings about. Because we didn't have our lips down, with our jaws dropped down going, "What was that? What was happening? Was it a fancy water display or something like that?" But it was just very straight. It was just very simple.

A beautiful thing had happened. A beautiful thing manifested. And that was that the premies came together, and basically that's what it was. The premies came together and Guru Maharaj Ji came together. And both of them came together and there was something that happened. And it doesn't really matter what that was. It really doesn't matter if it was Holi or it was dry darshan, because they were having enough problems keeping that gun going. And if that gun wouldn't have worked, would that have been the end of Holi? Would that have been the end of what happened? No!

Because it really doesn't matter. Because it's the Knowledge. It's that understanding. It's that bliss that we are looking for. It's that beauty that we all want to share. It's not a particular action.

So, in our understanding, this is what has to be completely clear. You have to go back and you have to go through it completely in slow motion, and see, "Well, okay, what happened? What was so beautiful? What was so incredible?" And then sort of freeze the frame, and look at it and keep looking at it. And then say, "Okay, well, how can I adapt that in my life so that kind of an experience will always be happening?" Not just

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Because it's really incredible. We just finished this Holi, and there's going to be a Holi in Miami. And it's really something, because there's one more Holi coming up this year very, very soon. This is really something to think about. And so, premies, that's the important thing: to just know and to just freeze-frame that one frame in our life and focus ourself into that understanding.

As I was saying the first day, there can be a projector and there can be a screen. And this projector can be playing anything. But if the lens is completely out of focus then it doesn't matter what movie it's playing. Because it could be playing "Jaws" or it could be playing "Satguru Has Come" and it wouldn't make a difference because it's so out of focus. But as soon as the focus is there, as soon as that focus happens …

Because, for instance, if there was something like that playing, people would probably say, "This is completely nuts! This is completely crazy!" and walk out of here! Because they're not here to watch that! They're not here to watch Walt Disney cartoons. They're here to merge in that Love, in that devotion. And that's what we want. That's what we have to try to accomplish in our lives.

And so it's one step, another step, and another step. And we always keep taking these steps. One program after another program after another program. After every program we feel like, "That was a completely incredible program. How could there be anything more than that? How could it be much more fantastic than that?"

And then, just look at this program in Europe. It's incredible. And there's half the amount of people here that are going to be in Florida, and there's three-quarters of the people going to be in Florida than there were in Rome. And yet, the beauty doesn't expire. The beauty doesn't depend upon how many people are there.

I mean, it would be incredible if there were a satsang program held and only one premie showed up. If he were to have that understanding, of course. Only then would it be incredible. But if he had that understanding, and only one premie showed up, it would be incredible for him. Because it's that satsang, it's that opportunity to be able to focus. It's that feeling of quenching the thirst that brings that clarity about, that brings that satisfaction to us.

So, for premies, that's the most important thing. And this is what we have to understand. That is the thing that we have to look at. I mean, just look at it, and everything is beautiful. Our logic, so many logics that we have, start to fail. This is what I was talking about the first day. Because in our lives we build all these tracks, we build all these tunnels, and we burrow ourselves into these tunnels. We burrow ourselves into these tracks. And it's just concepts.

You look and you see everything being fed to this little child. That's the way we are. That feeding of concepts, that feeding of non-understanding, that feeding of a lot of un-focussing, never ends in our life. It just keeps on happening. It keeps on happening even after we are fifty years old, even after we are sixty years old, even when we are just about ready to die maybe - a hundred years old, a hundred and fifty years old - still those concepts, those logics keep on happening. Still we have that mirage, still we have that fake understanding "that whatever I have built in my life is perfect. Whatever I have done so far is perfect. This is the way things have

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Prem Rawat (Maharaji) Malaga Spain 1978 been and this is the way I did it. And my life has been complete. My life has been successful." Not really knowing what the purpose is, but making a purpose. This is the way a lot of people's lives are. They are here in this world, and they appoint a purpose for themselves. They say, "Okay, this is my purpose."

And you see all these retirement trips that they have. It's incredible because in this retirement program, you get a house or an apartment near this coast or something like that. And if you have money left over in your bank, you can buy a boat or you can build a boat, and then you can sail right across the world, take a world cruise. And this is your retirement package. And to people that's the most incredible thing that could ever happen to them.

When you come to a place like Malaga, there's a lot of retirement packages here. And a lot of people come to retire. All along they're just working, working, working, and then they have the dream that, "Okay, when I retire, I'll get a boat and I'll get a little house near the coast. And that'll be it. And then I'll have enough money left. I hope my kids won't put me into the old folk's home." Or something like that - whatever dreams we have.

It's completely nuts to me, because all our lives … When we are little, first of all, we don't even have that understanding that there is something far superior than a dolly. Or that there is something far more than a bottle of apple juice. Or that there is something more than whatever the kid wants to play that day!

But then, slowly and slowly, as that understanding starts to grow in our lives that maybe there is something that is great, maybe there is something that is incredible - by that time, it's school time. Because now you can learn your A-B-C-D. Now you are at the point where you can comprehend. So the first comprehension that is really given to that child is, "Here is the raw material for you to go out and get mixed up completely." And that's the way it is.

I know that this is a completely debatable subject. A lot of people say, "Well, if you don't go to school then how are you going to get along in this world?" In India, it was, "How are you going to speak English?" And "How are you going to do this? How are you going to do that?"

And I was completely amazed, because in my school there was an English kid. I was completely amazed because he was so little and he could speak English! To me it was like, "How can he speak English? He's hardly started to go to the school and he has a really good accent and he really knows what he's talking about."

But anyway, we give our concepts so much material to build on. And then all this goes through. It's a real trip. It's a real intense trip that we go through in college or with the psychiatrist.

Yesterday I was just talking to the premies in the residence and I was saying, "How many years did you go to college?" And somebody said, "Two years." Somebody said, "Four years." And I said, "You were that dumb, huh? You couldn't learn and you were stuck in college for four years."

But that's okay. We go on and we learn and we go to college or we go to the university. We get our doctorate, B.A., M.A., Ph.D. or whatever we get. And then there it is. And then you look forward and you say, "Well, now I want to do something in my life. I want to do something neat."

It's like coming into an art school of the Lord. And in this beautiful art school where this Lord, this Creator,

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has made so many beautiful and wonderful things, you're supposed to also try to make something. At the gate you are given, basically, a few facts, a few things. And that's just a very simple understanding, and that understanding is about life, that there is a purpose to it. And that's all you're told, then you're supposed to enter this art school.

And in this art school there are a lot of people. They don't understand what's going on in that school. They don't understand, because they forget that first thing that was told to them. They forget that first fact that was given to them when they entered the school. And so they have collected all these materials from all different places and have done this and done that. And so when you walk in, they hand you these raw materials, and you're supposed to stay there and carve out a statue.

There's an entrance and then there's this great big school. Whatever you do in this art school, you're supposed to take it to the end of the school. And at the end of the school, which is almost like a building that's separate from the school, is the Lord Himself.

And you come in. There's people waiting there for you to come in, to be able to hand you the stuff. They hand you the stuff and you take all this stuff and you just say, "Okay. I'll do it." Because how many people really do remember making that decision, "Yes, I want to go to school." Nobody makes that decision. It's, "You just go to school, kid. You go to school!" And you go to school, before you know you're going to school, you're in school. Maybe after one day you don't want to go to school. That's a different story. But that doesn't matter. You're there' It's not like a little kid saying, "Yes, I want to go to school. And I want to he there for the rest of my life."

So you just sit there and you're just told, "Okay, get at it! This is it! This is all yours!" And you sit there and you start to make this sculpture. And you get into it and you get into it. Not that you were an artist by birth or by any capability. You just get into it. And then, you're finished. That's it. And you take the statue over to the Lord, and say, "Here it is! Ta-da!" You know, you are proud of it.

And you can just imagine that Creator saying, "What's the matter with you? What is this? Get it out of here! Is this what you did in My school? Who told you to do this?"

There you are. And you've seen the start of a football game where the guy has just kicked a football and it's flying in the air. It's like your life just got kicked. Everything that you did was completely wrong, was completely absurd.

Sometimes that's exactly what happens. We enter this world and we are given all these raw materials. And we take all these raw materials: our Ph.D. degree, or our M.D. degree, or whatever our degrees are. And then we go up and either we get a residency in a hospital, or we start to write a thesis or a book or this or that. And we get into our little things, whatever we want to do.

And then, after we are fed up, or incapable of doing that thing, we start thinking about retirement. After all that is done, you retire. And after you retire, only one thing happens. You leave the school. That's it.

It's not like after you retire you get reborn right then and there or something like that. It's not like automatically your body starts becoming younger and you start to go down. You lose height and you start to become real babyish, and the whole process went reverse.


In our lives, the most important thing is that we be clear,
that we have that understanding that we have to surrender …

So what have we done in that short period? And I know that what I was saying is completely debatable, because to some people it's like, "But if there were no doctors, what would happen."' Yes, that's true. There need to be doctors in this world. And these doctors should he properly qualified, not just to go up to some place, pay five dollars and say, "Give me a doctor's degree," and they become a doctor, buy themselves a stethoscope, syringe and some needles and go around saying, "I'm a doctor. I'm a doctor," There should be proper doctors in this world.

But the thing is those people who say, "But there needs to be a doctor, there needs to be a psychiatrist, there needs to be a school teacher, there needs to be an engineer, there needs to be a pilot." That's all okay! Yes. But they're undermining one thing. And that one thing that they're undermining is that there also needs to be the proper understanding of the purpose of this life. Because without that understanding, everything is nothing. But by understanding the purpose of life and keeping parallel to that understanding, then you can have anything manifest for you. Then you can have anything that you want. Then you can have that thing that you want to do and it wouldn't even affect you. Because you have found that right track. You have found the right tunnel. You have found the right thing. You've accomplished the purpose of life. You've accomplished the purpose of this body being born into this world.

But then, right after this, another argument starts. How do you keep fulfilling the purpose of life? And this is a question that would baffle everybody. And the reason why it would baffle all the intellectuals is because they would never get past the first question. They would be still debating about the purpose of life. After they would have accepted the fact that, yes, they do need to understand the purpose of life, they would be still debating on what the purpose of life is.

But by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace we've gone a little bit beyond that step, and we have come to that point where we do understand the purpose of this life. But now the question is, how do you keep fulfilling the purpose of that life when you're supposed to be an M.D. or when you're supposed to be an engineer or when you're supposed to be this or that?

Well, then you have to say, "Okay, well wait minute. Let's not ask too many questions. Let's isolate one thing. How do you fulfill the purpose of this life? Once you have found it, how do you keep fulfilling it?" And it's completely obvious: satsang, service, and meditation.

Because I know so much gibberish comes out. And it's not like a natural thing in people. One thing that they want to talk about constantly, one thing that they are almost impelled to do … somebody is trying to grab their neck from the back and shake it and compel them to do chitchat instead of satsang. And you can obviously feel the effect of mind. You can obviously, in those regions, feel the effect of mind when the time for service comes, when the time for meditation comes.

I mean, you can be sitting through a three hour movie and never even yawn. And sitting through satsang, I've seen premies completely asleep. They are supposedly listening to satsang. And maybe they have another line, "Oh, I was just doing meditation." Why can't you do meditation sitting up straight? Why do you have to be almost off the sofa?

There's all these mind excuses that

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Prem Rawat (Maharaji) Malaga Spain 1978 we have all built up for ourselves. It's almost like a battle: in case a battle were to start, in case we were to be questioned, we would have all these things that we can throw out. Our mind completely takes us away, our mind completely carries us away from our focus, from that purpose, that we are really supposed to have.

So, to actually have that real service experience, to have that real meditation experience, and to really have that satsang experience … Satsang, service, and meditation fulfill the purpose of this life; fulfill the destiny of this life. But then, again, the question appears: How do you make satsang, service, and meditation happen?

Have you ever started to do this, make dots when you're doodling? Make four dots, then three dots under them, then two dots, then one dot. And then you make a bigger one. It's just like a triangle. Maybe you'll start with ten and then have nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, and one. You're just doodling. It's the same way. It all boils down to one thing. And that is that you have to surrender. You have to let go. You have to really surrender in your life.

First there was a big question: "What is the purpose of this life?" Then you find that out. That's one point off. Then: "How do you keep accomplishing the purpose of this life?" Then there's three things left. And that's satsang, service, and meditation. "How do you keep on doing satsang, service, and meditation?" And there's the final point. And that is by completely surrendering to Guru Maharaj Ji.

It's like if we have a swimming pool, and we put the dirty water through filters and we process it. But if we throw it right out, not back into the pool, then very soon that pool will become completely empty. But it's very, very important that that pure water, that that fresh water, be put right back into that pool. Otherwise it will not accomplish its purpose of getting purified and recycled.

And it's the same way, premies. You have to understand what this life really is, who we really are! You have to look at an overall picture, and say, "Who am I? I'm a doctor, or I'm an engineer, or I'm a pilot, but who am `I? Who is that real thing? What is that real thing that is within inside of me that I am here for?" Because you're not here to become a doctor, by no means. You become a doctor because that's what you want to do. But does that mean that whatever you want to do in this life is the purpose of your life? Certainly not.

There is just one set purpose of life. And every Perfect Master that has

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come in this world so far has pointed out that purpose of life. And it's been exactly the same. Theories and words can only take you so far. But the experience takes you miles beyond. That experience takes you further and further and further.

Because then you really start to experience: "Okay, so great. I'm a doctor. I'm a pilot. I'm an engineer." (Or whatever your career is, or whatever you're pursuing.) "I'm a tractor-trailer man. Or a bus driver. But that's my career! The first thing is: What am I here for? And then you just see that you're here to accomplish, to fulfill that destiny of complete surrender, of being able to plug right back in from where you came, and therefore have the never-ending circle that just keeps on going on and on and on.

If you are a bus driver now, then it doesn't mean that in the next life time, if you haven't fulfilled your purpose, and you become an insect, you're going to come bacj as a bus driver, and get to sit on the steering wheel. Or if you become a beetle, and if you're a doctor, don't expect that they're going to accept you in the hospital: "Yes, this is the great surgeon of his time." and start handing you instruments to cut people open. That's not going to happen like that.

But there is this everlasting thing. Sometimes when you are sitting in a room, the whole perspective sort of folds in. But you look out or you go outside, say at nighttime, and you see all these stars. I mean, they're completely incredible. You see these stars and you just start to look up. And you say, "Wow, man. These are far, far away. And there's a whole galaxy out there. And who knows what's beyond that galaxy? And what's beyond even that, or what this whole universe is made of?" And yet, you still know that this whole universe which is in our reach is completely finite.

And yet there exists a thing that's completely infinite. Past all the universes, past all the stars, all the galaxies, all the Milky Ways, all the moons, all the suns, lies an incredible experience, lies this incredible energy. And that energy is experienced. The experience of that energy, by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, is possible, now. And that is what's being rendered to us. That's what's been given to us, to be able to experience that perfection, to be able to experience that bliss, to be able to experience that incredible beauty that lies within all of us.

What makes us premies? What makes us understand that we are all premies? It's that Knowledge. Because we all share the same secret that keeps every one of us alive. Okay, so you don't know what the other guy's wardrobe is like. Or what kind of watch he wears. But it doesn't matter. Because we all know one thing, and that's that Knowledge. And we know that that Knowledge keeps you alive, keeps me alive, keeps everybody here alive. And then, by knowing that, it automatically becomes a beautiful, beautiful garland, in which we completely just merge, and become one, and then experience that great oneness that just doesn't end! It has no end to it. And so that's the point that we have to come to.

Because this mind always tends to try to do whatever it has to to insure that we are always confused, to insure that we're always on the wrong track. And you can ask that one question: "Why?


"Because the more we surrender, the more that Grace will be able to flow.
And the more that Grace will be able to flow,
then the more satsang, service, and meditation will be able to manifest in our life."

Why is mind so incredibly after us, so blatantly after us to keep us confused all the time? Why is it always wanting us to pursue the wrong thing in our lives?" Because that is the negativity. There's a positive and there's a negative. And the negativity is always the shadow. And it's just like I said. Mind is not something that you can touch. Mind is not something that you can see. But you can just feel it. It's this thing always following you, wherever you go. And the slightest moment that it can, it attacks you. It's there, and it's just always hovering.

Because it is what we have created. It's our monster. It's our shadow that we have created. And it hovers over us, and haunts us. And we keep on making those mistakes, keep on making those gates so that that haunting becomes even more and more terrifying.

This world would just completely collapse if Perfect Master stopped coming in this world. I can't possibly even imagine or foresee what this world would be like. Because it would be completely incredible to just see the beginning and the end of the world in the same minute, in the same second, in the same hour. It'd be just gone! Finished! I mean, with the Perfect Master in this world there's enough problems. And with him not here, it just feels like the whole thing would just go "poof", and that would be it.

And when Perfect Master comes into this world, what does he try to do? When Jesus came into this world, did he say, "Oh, my children, go to the moon and you will find peace"? Or when Mohammed came, what did he say, "Go to Mars, and there you will see the scene that you've never seen before"? I mean, he could technically have said that, because I guess since nobody had been to Mars, then that would be a scene that nobody had ever seen before! But he didn't say that.

And at that time in the battlefield, what is Krishna trying to explain to Arjun? Is he trying to tell him how great the moon is? How the craters are there? And there is no gravity. And you just give yourself a little push and you go flying in the air. And that's the peace, and that's the settlement, and that's the happiness? Or saying that, "Fight against each other, and that will bring you peace and that will bring you satisfaction, and that will bring you happiness?" And even in the Gita, where this is what Krishna was talking to Arjun about: "Okay, why don't you fight?" There was completely something different that happened.

Krishna said, "Okay, Arjun, I'll reveal to you the third eye through which you will be able to see me, because you cannot see me with these eyes." And when Krishna revealed the third eye to Arjun, this is the incredible sight that they depict in pictures. (Of course, they're hand-painted. They didn't find the negative of it or any thing like that.) But it's like a thousand heads, one with fire coming out and one with this coming out, one with that coming out. And I mean, it's just like outrageous, incredible, fantastic.

And yet when you receive Knowledge, you know exactly what that Arjuna saw. It wasn't something like fifty-thousand heads. He saw this Light that Krishna described to him. He said, "You're going to see a Light that hundreds and thousands of suns put together are not even like that." And he saw the real form, Krishna's real form.

So every time the Perfect Master has come into this world, where has he directed that attention? Why has he said, "What we need to do is to bring peace into this Earth?" It's "bring peace into this Earth." Why has it been always "peace into this Earth"?

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Prem Rawat (Maharaji) 1978 Because there's always been an absence of peace. And what has filled the absence of peace? The mind. The darkness. The illusion.

And we create that monster. Every one of us creates our own little monster. And this little monster follows us everywhere we go. It has its own capabilities. It's an outrageous thing. You know, two minds aren't the same. And yet, what they do is exactly the same thing: completely take you away from that purpose. And you can see that, you can feel that, that very definite thing. Because whenever you sit down to do meditation, whenever you start to do service, whenever you start to do meditation, you feel this strong inertia, you feet this strong pull, pulling you away from it.

And then when you start to do the eight-ball things of the day, you never feel that inertia, you never feel that pull. It's just so beautiful when you do the eight-ball things that you do!, Go out and get an ice cream, of go out and do this or do that. Whatever we do, that's perfectly okay. It's just that when we want to experience that happiness in our life, when we want to experience that peace in our life, something drops in and says, "Na, na, na, na. That's the wrong thing." And only by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace … because how far are we going to fight this fight? And how long is it going to last?

Someone was giving satsang, and said, "Help! This is what we have to do. We have to just say, 'Oh, Guru Maharaj Ji, help!'"

And then somebody in the audience said, "Help!" And all I felt that, not in that way. That's not the way. It's not like "Scream help! "Help!" Not like that. But to really mean "Help, Guru Maharaj Ji," to really mean that in your life.

Because, really, that relationship that Guru Maharaj Ji has with all the premies is not a verbal relationship. It's not like I stand up on the stage and say, "Oh, okay, raise your right hand. And be it known by this day that you are premies and I'm Guru Maharaj Ji," and so on and so forth. It's a relationship that only happens because there is something happening within inside of us. Because when that beauty is brought into our lives, that fulfillment is brought into our lives, it's an incredible connection that forms between a devotee and Guru Maharaj Ji. And that's that connection that we have to keep alive all the time. And through that connection we have to open up to Guru Maharaj Ji and say, "Guru Maharaj Ji, help me."

At what point in our lives do we tell Guru Maharaj Ji, "Okay, I don't need your help anymore"? We always say, "Okay. Guru Maharaj Ji, help." But at what point in our lives do we turn around and tell Guru Maharaj Ji, "That's enough."

There is never that point in our lives. Because if we come to that point, we've done something abruptly wrong.

It reminds me of an example. There was this guy walking. And the sun and the wind had a competition. The wind said, "I can make this guy's coat come off. I can have him take off his coat."

And the sun said, "No, I can do it."

The wind said, "I can do it. I can do it much better."

So the sun said, "Okay, you can give it a go and I'll give it a go, and whoever wins is the winner." (Of course, premies, that probably never did happen. It's just a story. I don't think the sun came to the wind and said, "Do it,". But it's an example.)

And the wind blew and blew and it blew colder, the mightiest that it could blow. And the the guy just kept on hanging to his jacket more and more and more. The more it would blow, the more he would hang on, because the colder it would get! The guy was completely surprised: he was just really freezing.

And then all of the sudden the sun said, "Okay, have you given up'! Now, let me do it." And all the sun had to do was shine. That's all the sun had to do. And the guy said, "Wow, the sun is shining. Now it's going to be warm. I can take my jacket off." And the guy took his jacket off.

And it's just the same thing, because there is this mind and it blows and it blows. The more we keep walking into that wind, the colder it gets, and the more we have to hang on to that mind. But then, when we walk away from it, and when Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace shines right upon us, all it has to do is just shine. When that mind goes away, when that mind has been "dis-attracted," when that mind has been taken away.

By "mind" I mean that sensation that sort of hangs around your head right here and follows you and grabs you by your neck and forces you into doing completely stupid things in your life. And when that mind is taken away, then we can see completely clearly. Then we can see what that beauty really is.

So premies, Knowledge is such an incredible thing, because it just shines and shines.

But this happens only by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, when we don't say a word and yet mean it from the bottom of our heart - that "Help." And then it just manifests.

Because then that real try, that real effort starts to happen. Guru Maharaj Ji's not going to help you unless you help yourself first. You have to put the starter fluid in there. You have to

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make that effort. But as soon as you start to make that effort, Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Okay. I know you have a spade and you are digging and you want to dig." But Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Okay, here is my Grace. Now strike." And the one strike of that spade can now split the earth open. And that's that effort. It's like that little bit of our effort, of our genuine effort …

Because when we are completely lost in this mind, we tend to do so many things in so many ways. This mind tries to take us away from that reality that really exists. Mind just says, "No, no," in so many ways. Just trick after trick. "Just tell the initiator that you are doing okay. Just tell the National Coordinator that you are doing okay. Just tell the other people you are doing okay." And inside you could be completely rotting. To a lot of people, it's that same way. Maybe they're not even practicing, but they seem to put on this mask and say, "Okay, I'm doing just fine. I'm doing just great."

And yet, premies, Knowledge works for you. It doesn't work for anybody else. When you meditate, you meditate for yourself. And you get that experience. It's not like you can say, "Okay, can you meditate for me today?" No. It just doesn't work like that. It's our own experience that has to work for us, not somebody else's experience. And then we have to make that effort so that we can be at that point, and get away from those "trickeries". Because, man, it's really serious!

That's what we have to understand, that this is not a joke! And we have to really understand that this is not some hypothetical situation that's been created; that if there were to be a life, and if there were to be a purpose to this life, and if there were to be a Guru Maharaj Ji, and if there were to be something called Knowledge, then what would happen? This is what would happen. This is not a hypothetical situation. This is a real situation. It's not a situation. But it's a reality. It's not "supposedly". This is not based on "suppose".

When premies walk through darshan line, there's so much experience that happens, it's really , really incredible. Those premies come to do pranam by their experience. And if a person does come by and puts on a show as he's doing pranam, you can pick him out three people away or four people away. You can feel him even in the tunnel. But when that Love is there, when that understanding is there, when that flow is there, then who dares stop that sun from shining? Even the clouds might come between us, but all we have to do is go above those clouds and there it is: the beautiful sunshine.

It was the same way when we were in England. It was cloudy and everything. And when we took off, we went through bumps and we went through this heavy turbulence through these clouds. And then we broke through and there it was, beautiful sun, beautiful blue sky, just shining.

And so that Grace is always there, that beauty is always there. But we have to really make that effort in our lives and say, "No, wait a minute. I really want to do it. I really want to experience. I really want to solve the purpose of my life. I really want to fulfill the destiny of my life. I really want to fulfill the reason why I have been born into this world. And I really want to be one with that Lord. I really want to be one with that Being."


"That's the important thing,
to just know and to just freeze frame
that one frame in our life
and focus ourself into that understanding."

And you can do it! And that is why that Grace is there. That is why Knowledge is there. To be able to fulfill.

Because what is that beauty? What is that pleasure that comes when we do meditation? What is that experience of service? You could sit down and you could talk all day long and yet never will you be able to describe what that experience really is. Because it's just such a personal, beautiful thing that happens when we have our heart set on doing that service.

All the concepts just sit there and watch. The logics just sit there and watch. And then you turn around to yourself and say, "Wow. Service. Beautiful." Because all your concepts: "What what could it be? And what it's not. And this can't be, and that can't be. And that's not right, and this is wrong," get left completely behind, stay right there. And you take that one step ahead by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace because you want to really do it, you really want to make that little effort.

And it's so incredible that every day this propagation is growing. There are more and more initiators. There's so many people who've applied to become initiators. And very soon those people will be able to become initiators. And then there'll be more premies and then more initiators and more premies and then more initiators.

Not that those initiators are anything special, it's just that they may be able to broadcast that voice of Guru Maharaj Ji when they are … and again it's the same thing:. "Initiator" is not a guarantee that whatever you hear from that initiator is going to be right. And that was told to them. I mean, in that last group I told them that. I said, "But if you are unclear, -" There was the example that I was giving of a tape recorder. I said, "There is a tape recorder. And this tape recorder has a tape: the tape is all the premies. And they accumulate what you say in their heads. And you are the tape recorder; you are the tape recorder, yourself. And on the other end of this tape recorder is Guru Maharaj Ji with the microphone. But if you are plugged into different sources, other sources, and if you are on 'Phono 1 input' or something like that, and you've got a record playing, then that's what's going to be recorded. Then that's what's going to come out of you. But when you are completely clear, when you are completely open, when you are completely, completely clear to Guru Maharaj Ji, then what comes out of you is satsang. Because that's what Guru Maharaj Ji becomes. And then you can become that right word called 'channel.' Then you can be the channel for Guru Maharaj Ji."

And there's so many people that have applied to become initiators. And I'm not saying that everybody will be able to become an initiator one day. That's not the goal. And it's not that what every initiator says, is the word of God. It's not that way. (Maybe it's about God, but might not be the word of God.)

But in our lives is where we have to be clear! Within ourselves is where we have to be clear. Within ourselves is where we have to understand how that Knowledge works, not looking at some initiators and saying, "How beautiful. Oh, that's really incredible. They're initiators now. It's a really good vibe." (And you always hear that from the premies. "Oh, that initiator has a really good vibe around him."0

How long are you going to keep counting on vibes? What if he doesn't show up? What if in your little community an initiator doesn't show up for two, three, four, five months? Then it's like, when that initiator doesn't show up in your community for three, four, or five months, and you are not making any effort, it makes a great difference when that initiator shows

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Prem Rawat (Maharaji) dressed As Krishna up, because he tells you to make that effort. And then you go, "Yeah, okay, that's really incredible." But when you are making that effort and that initiator comes in your community, then things click, not fry every wire in your system. Then you can understand what Guru Maharaj Ji is talking about.

It's not like reading a satsang from Divine Times, or Elan Vital and squinting because you can't understand what I'm talking about. It's not clicking within inside of you: "Satsang, service, and meditation." (But when you have been doing satsang, service, and meditation, and you come to a part where Guru Maharaj Ji says, "And do satsang, service, and meditation," then a beautiful smile breaks out, because you understand. It clicks in you. You really understand what he's saying.)

So, in our lives that's the most important thing, that we be clear, that we have that understanding that we have to surrender. Because the more we surrender, the more that Grace will be able to flow. And the more that Grace will be able to flow, then the more satsang, service, and meditation will be able to manifest in our life. And the less that surrender is, less the Knowledge is, less the Grace is, and less everything is. And so the purpose of the life is automatically accomplished less.

It's the most easiest thing to be on the right track. And if you look at it, completely naturally, it's more difficult to be on the wrong track than it is to be on the right track. Because the right track is made for you. The wrong track isn't. And every time you go over the wrong track, it's just bumpy. And when you go over the right track it's smooth, completely smooth. And it just feels so at home, feels so beautiful.

And so, again, premies, the decision is ours, as I said. It's completely up to us. We can make it. And I know that every one of you sitting in this bull ring has the potential to do it. You can do it. It's not some mystique, but it's just very, very simple. You're there. You're breathing. You're alive. You can do it. And so it is the same way for somebody who is out there. Just get out of these little monsters, just get out of these little concepts that you have created for yourself.

It's just like building a castle. You build a castle and there's so much that goes into this castle. And the castle is just like a concept in your life. You build and build and build a castle. By the time you're finished with it, the waves start coming, just getting closer and closer to the castle. And then you keep on making repairs until it comes to the point where you can't

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even do repairs because the waves come up and take half of it away. Anther one comes up, takes the other half away.

And it's the same way. We have all these different concepts in our life. And we really work on them, really keep them perfect, really keep them alive, really keep them sustained, really exercise them every day. And then the one great big wave comes, and we start patching it. We start adding more concepts to it, even more concepts to it, and sustaining it even more, until just that one great big one comes and there's nothing left. All gone.

And then, we turn around and say, "That was crazy, wasn't it?" But that's the point. And that is why a Perfect Master comes in this world. To be able to point out to you right now what's going on. To tell you, "Okay, wait. Really Practice that Knowledge."

And for those people who haven't received that Knowledge to say, "Okay. Wait. There is something greater in your life. There is something that is the real happiness." Not some happiness that you think is real is the real happiness. There is the real happiness that you had a glimpse of, and then you try to imitate that happiness. It's not like that. That's what the Perfect Master says. Wait. You are searching for something. You're looking for that water, and that water is within you, that water is there. I can give you that water. And you can quench your thirst. Why go around in your mirages? Why go around thinking, `Oh there is the oasis.' And crawl, crawl, crawl, crawl, and end up finding out it was just a mirage. And then see another one, and keep chasing all these mirages for the rest of your lifetime! There is no necessity.

"The thing that you want is the water, and I have the water. The thing that you want is the shade, and I have the shade to give you. And therefore you can fulfill the purpose. You can have the satisfaction of quenching your thirst. You can have that satisfaction of what you're looking for."

And that's what a Perfect Master does. And it's so beautiful, because it's for nothing. All a Perfect Master wants is complete Love, that true Love from that person. Because that Love makes that two-way connection.

It's like really incredible because they have all these commercials in America. And there's one commercial about a car "that wants you for keeps." They say, "Not only do we make nice cars, but we give you a good warranty. And we give you this good and that good, so that you keep coming back to us."

And what it is is they're just trying to make a connection so that you keep coming back, so there is always that connection happening, so always there is a continuous flow.

And that's exactly what Guru Maharaj Ji wants. But he wants that to be completely continuous and be completely true between every individual and Guru Maharaj Ji. Be that Love River, and never stop. No dam. No strings involved. Nothing. Just that river flowing. And through that river, that Grace flows. And through that river, that Love flows. And through that river comes your water and through that river comes your shade and through that river comes everything, all that beauty that you can't even imagine

You can't even say, "Well, that's what I was looking for. Thank you." It all goes beyond that when there is that connection there. But when that connection is broken, then it just all sweeps away, then it just all goes right down the drain.

So premies, it's just such a beautiful thing happening more and more every day. We have to open up to be able to just become that devotee. I like that song, "Teach me Devotion." It has a certain meaning to me. And the meaning to me is that if you are a devotee, what more can you ask for except for Guru Maharaj Ji to teach you devotion? With that devotion comes everything. It just hits somewhere, and it's beautiful. It just strikes at the right place. Because that's all we want. That devotion is all that we want. And it's just from my experience. That's what I say: that the devotee needs devotion, a lover needs love. Because if that lover doesn't have any love, then he's not a lover anymore. If that devotee doesn't have any devotion, then how can he be a devotee? And that's the thing that we want.

There's so many ways to explain it, and there's so many functions to it. And you can just go step by step one by one. You can say, "Okay, it's to do satsang, service, and meditation. Or it's to have Grace flow through. Or it's to have the Love flow through." Or anything. But it all goes in one great circle, and it is to just be that devotee who can understand and who can see and who can experience that Love, who can experience that devotion that really is there.

What can you say? What can you verbally say? Because that's an experience. And how can you try to describe that experience of what devotion is like, of what that surrender is like, of what that Love is like? Even for one moment to have Love, and not to have any selfish reason behind it, not to have any reason whatsoever attached to it. No strings attached. It's an experience! Just a beautiful, incredible Love. Love Original. Period.

Everything that we love has something attached behind it. You love a car. If you have a Rolls Royce, and you love it, maybe because it gives you something. Or people even have Mini-Coopers and they love their Mini-Cooper because it gives them something. You say, "Oh, do you like your car?" "Oh, yes. I love it." "Why do you love it?" "Oh, because it's a great car." And everything has a reason except when you come to that point of Guru Maharaj Ji and the devotee.

What reason in the whole earth can there be except that it's the genuine Love, the Love that's supposed to be there between Guru Maharaj Ji and a devotee? An automatic thing. An automatic thing. And it manifests every day more and more as we try, as we manifest, as we open up, into the true world, into the real world where we really want to be. In the real world of Guru Maharaj Ji, as we open up more and more.

In this world maybe one tree will give us an orange. Maybe other one will give an apple. And maybe a third one will have a snake suspended from it. Maybe that's the way this world is. There is a lot here. And the Creator has created this world.

But within our own hearts, we have our worlds. And this world that we all want to be in is the world of Guru Maharaj Ji, Guru Maharaj Ji's World. And it just sounds kind of odd: "Guru Maharaj Ji's World. Well, what is that?" Then, too, it has no shape. It's not a spherical ball. It doesn't have any reason why it should be there. It doesn't have any gravity. It doesn't have anything. It's just that Guru Maharaj Ji's World is a very, very simple thing: it's understanding. It's a connection: Guru Maharaj Ji's World. It puts you on one end, and Guru Maharaj Ji on the other. And that makes that whole beauty appear.

It's just complete Grace, And all you experience is that beauty. And that's the power, that's the incredible thing. Because the lives that people have are just completely full of all this junk. And then when that satsang comes, when that service comes, and when that meditation comes, it just makes everything else disappear, and makes that real purpose of that life come to life again.

So I hope I see you very soon. That's all there is to say. And until I see you again, just keep on doing that satsang, service, and meditation. Because without that, you are there, but you're not there. It's just like, that's the way it is. So just keep on, keep on trucking.

Thank you very much.

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