Dear premies, it's really beautiful to just feel so much Grace and so much Love. When you feel something, you don't want explanations. When you feel something, you don't want to know anything else except to feel what that beauty really is, to feel what that perfection really is, and never in our lives to lose track of that feeling, of that Love, of that devotion.

I was just sitting right down there. There's a little place to sit down. And I was listening to all the satsang. And you feel; you don't see. You don't have to see. And you don't have to look at things. And there need be no bright lights. And there need not be barriers or no barriers, or whatever, just a very strong feeling, a very incredible feeling. And that feeling comes when we really understand our Guru Maharaj Ji. That feeling really comes when we see our Guru Maharaj Ji. That feeling really comes when we obey our Guru Maharaj Ji.

Before I received Knowledge, there was of course a lot of love and a lot of respect for Shri Maharaj Ji. And it was really incredible; it was really something. It was different than my classmates had. And in the communication that was there, it was beautiful. But not until I received Knowledge, not until he imparted me Knowledge - not until I had been through the thing of "What is this world all about? Is there more? Is there more? Is there something more in this world?" not as though I had gone through everything that maybe you have gone through, or maybe even a fraction of what you have gone through. What was there to go through? It was very simple.

I was just a little boy, and I went to school every day and came back home to play. But that was it. And even within that, I realized that there was unmeaning - just meaningless things happening in people's life, in my life: 45 minutes of different periods of different things; geography, or arithmetic, grammar. Everyday you had a chart and you had to make sure you brought the right book and so on and so forth. And it was like this senseless globe. It was a globe that was so confusing. And then when Guru Maharaj Ji revealed us the Knowledge, when Guru Maharaj Ji revealed me the Knowledge, it became different. It became so different, so beautiful, so incredible, because now …

It was like being in an abandoned boat, in a little life raft. And okay, if you know about the new, modern life rafts, they even have a canopy, and the canopy is made so that in case it rains, it catches water. It has food. And it has an S.O.S. sender. And it has all these different modern conveniences. But after a while, life becomes like this life raft that once was great, that once was incredible. Now that same canopy that was supposed to catch the rain water has a hole in it. The S.O.S. signal: Nobody is receiving it; the battery has run down on it. The flashlight - everything that's in there, is losing its aim, it's losing its purpose; it's losing its goal. Blindly, as we hope and expect and dream and imagine to go on everyday, we meaninglessly leave the greatest meaning behind of just being able to realize how beautiful Guru Maharaj Ji is, how beautiful this Knowledge really is, how beautiful it is to be there. It's an incredible feeling, just to know.

And I know that people have so much logic. And people abide by logic, their meaning, their little rooms, their little capsules that they live in. Things have to be a certain way. We all live like that. It's not just one individual. And yet, in living that life of our capsule, we leave something behind. We lose the reality of: Why are we here? Why aren't we with Guru Maharaj Ji? Why aren't we with Knowledge? Why, for even one split second, can't we obey Guru Maharaj Ji? Why is that mind there? Why is such an illusion existing that the canopy is getting bigger every day, that the canopy is starting to accumulate - or make - fresh water, that the battery for the S.O.S. sender is getting charged automatically? The imagination, the mind, is taking over; and in reality forgetting the reality that even the air is starting to leak out of that life raft.

And to look, and to see this ship coming at you, piercing through the fog, honking its horn. And seemingly it's the most beautiful ship coming through. And all of a sudden it stops and drops these lines. And you're just lost in your illusion, lost in your dream, in your ignorance. "Let go!" You say, "Thanks, but no thanks." And the captain says, "But what are you doing?" And you just say, "No. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay."

That's how it is sometimes, premies. Here we are. And Guru Maharaj Ji, by his infinite Grace and infinite Mercy, really - there's a saying in Hindi that in the middle of this whole world, the whole universe, all these big pieces of metal, red-hot, are falling. And if it wouldn't have been for that Master in this world, this whole world would just burn up.

And it's really incredible, because it's not in the sense of "Hindi" that we would all understand, or even I understood. But it was like trying to imagine that. Trying to imagine little hail, pieces about as big as hail dropping from the sky, red-hot, over the whole world, over the whole earth at the same time. And the earth just getting burnt to ashes. But that's what's happening.

Our little holes, our little capsules: We've got to leave them behind. We've got to say, we've got to convince, we've got to see, open our eyes! Look around. Feel. And know that the raft is no good anymore. The things that we have held onto for such a long time are giving up. And there is only one thing that ever was there, that ever will be there, and that was supposed to be there for us to grab onto. And that's the Love, the Grace, the Knowledge, Guru Maharaj Ji. And that's what we have to do. That's the effort that we have to make.

Because look at where the mind puts us every day. Where does it take us? Can you for one moment in your imagination

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re-create a day?

I'll take an example. You get up. Let's say you are a premie. And let's also portray an image of a person who's partially practicing. Okay? So he gets up and he sits down in the mode of meditation - and I mean the mode of meditation, the physical posture. And then after a little while he has trouble. He can't really meditate, so he just rolls over and takes a little nap. And then he gets up, goes out, gets his paper, gets the scene together. Sees a picture of Guru Maharaj Ji, goes like this (bows). And then, that's it. He just splits. Splits into this world. Just splits into unreality.

You know, I'm positive - as a matter of fact I'm 100 percent positive - there are people in the audience, there are people in this hall saying, "What unreality? What is unreality? Everything is real, isn't it? Anything you can touch, see, perceive, feel has to be real."

No! You see, the problem is that the glasses that you're looking through are red. And everything that you see is red. That doesn't mean that everything is red, just because you see it red.

What I'm trying to say is that you take for granted your perception of this life as real. And that is why you say, "This microphone is real, because I can touch it. This chair is for real; I can touch it." My question goes beyond all that reasoning. My question goes, "Am I, the one who's touching this chair, real or not?" Are you, the person, the hand, the body that touches, that goes out, that picks up the newspaper, that thinks, that imagines, looks out, and calls, and makes codes for reality, and announces things to be real - are you real? Have you actually understood the real purpose? Have you understood reality? Do you even know if you are artificial or you are real?

What I am talking about is that you are a glass that does not have a base. And therefore, keep filling it with water, and seemingly endless, endless, endless gallons go into you and you never fill up. That's what I'm trying to say. What I am trying to say is that if you cannot have the real thing, the real experience of satsang, service and meditation - if you cannot have that understanding of Guru Maharaj Ji - then you are like that glass that doesn't have a bottom. And therefore, your reasoning is baseless.

And that's what we pursue every day, in this whole world. That's what we like to pursue, that's our pleasure to pursue.

Okay, maybe I'm being a little too strong about this. But the thing is, this is not my first satsang. I started giving

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satsang a long, long, long time ago. As a matter of fact, you could say if you wanted to that I used to give satsang even before I had Knowledge. (So-called. It would appear to be satsang.) It just strikes me again and again, that since then I have been telling the people of this world the same exact thing: Realize that Knowledge. Realize who you are. Realize that reality. Forget the illusion. Forget it! There is nothing to it! There really isn't.

And they don't. It hasn't happened yet. And that's why, sometimes, it seems quite natural to tend to get a little strong about it.

To just tell people, "Listen, don't be like that donkey." And I'll give you that example. There were two donkeys. And one was carrying salt, and one was carrying cotton. And obviously, the one who was carrying salt didn't have seemingly that big of a load on his back. It just had two very little bags of salt. And the one who was carrying the cotton had a huge load, seemingly. Because it was very light, the guy made it a big load, with a lot of cotton. And they both came to a stream. And they were both getting really tired.

And the "cotton" donkey says to the donkey who's carrying the salt, "Man, this guy is really mean to me, because, look, he has given you - and I envy you because you are not carrying as big of a load as I am!"

The donkey said, "No. That's not true, you know. Your load looks big, but actually I'm carrying a lot more load."

And he said, "No, I don't believe you. I envy you. I'm jealous of you." They were tired. The donkey who was carrying the salt was a little smart … (that doesn't rhyme together). He sat down in the water, in the stream, and just the flow of the water dissolved the salt, and his load became light. And all of a sudden, the donkey got up, and he was really happy because the weight was gone off his back.

So this other donkey said, "Wow! Look at that! That's great! All I have to do is just sit down in the water, and my weight will get less and then I can go." And so the donkey did sit down in the water. And slowly the cotton started getting wet and heavier till the donkey couldn't even get up and drowned in the river!

So now, premies, here is an example. And it's not that funny. But it's a true example. That's what we do in our lives. We see some odd happiness - happiness maybe that's not even real. And we pursue it. We start pursuing it. We start getting into it more and more and more.

And then we say, "Well, if I do the same thing, my weight will decrease. My weight will get less, and then I don't have to carry so much in my life." And so we sink in the river of maya more and more and more and more. (Incidentally, if you don't know the meaning of maya, it's illusion. It's whatever is out there.) And we sink into it more and more and more and more, till we can't even get out, till we can't even get up, until we completely drown.

To me, that's the way a lot of people are. I mean, really, for one moment just look at it: What is the purpose of your life? Why is there a life?

It always gets me real concerned when all these people come out with all these crazy explanations: generation of cells and degeneration of cells, and test tube babies, and all these different trips - you know, making people so that they could use them as robots. Or something like watching Star Trek where these people are traveling in time, people are traveling in space, these people are coming with all these theories of how this odd-looking monkey was your ancestor, and trying to prove it, trying to take the bones and saying, "Yeah, see how this is more similar to your bone structure. This is more similar to your bone structure, till now you are here." And, like Marolyn was saying, why has there been a refinement? Why have we come to this point? That's a good question.

And of all the questions that we ask ourselves or ask other people, there's a good question that we have to ask ourselves: Why are we here, after all? Why are we here? What is the purpose to be here in this world? Is it to get stuck in the traffic jams every day? I mean so many things happen out there. Is that it, that we so blatantly and dedicatedly pursue, as though that were it, as though that was the goal of this life? You start looking at it and you see, it feels like a sponge, like a great big …

I saw this little disc, this little gadget like a holograph. It's about this big, and it has a concave mirror. And you put something in the center of it, and because of the reflection from all the sides, it creates an image on top of what's in the center of it. And you reach over to grab

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it, and it's not there. And you keep looking at it.

Or it's like sometimes at nighttime when you're going up some stairs and you think there is a stair there and you step. You feel the whole adrenaline shooting right up you, as if you fell or something. The whole thing just feels like such an illusion. And it is!

And you can't really get rid of that illusion. And yet, here you are. There is this machine; here you are. And here is this big machine: illusion, a mirage. And here is the reality. And reality is real; it has no shape, has no weight, has no mass. And therefore, it need not exist in any shape. Because it's real. Because it doesn't have to prove itself. It doesn't have to do anything! It's there. It's perfect. It's infinite.

But it's there. And we are in the middle. And here is the mirage. Here is the illusion. And somehow, in this mirage, in this illusion, we have to go under this illusion, then through the middle of this illusion, to back where we are supposed to be, and then right into reality. It's sort of like making an infinite sign.

To be able to be in this world - because we are born … it really was an incredible example. Because when a baby is born, that baby is so pure! I mean, it's not like a baby is born and there's a guy standing at your door with a summons saying, you know, "You should appear in court on such-and-such date."

So now, if you were to now take your calculations and calculate: There is this baby, and that's the way we all were. Okay. So maybe now we might be six feet tall, and look at things from a little different perspective. But remember, once we were all babies. Yes, those things that have to wear diapers! And here we are. And between that baby that has just been born, to what this world is, is an incredible, incredible thing.

It should not be too hard to calculate who put that link there. Because it's completely obvious to me that it's us who put this complete craziness, this complete worldliness, this complete attachment, there. And then, there's a very good principle: Two things cannot be at the same place at the same time.

So either we can be full of that Love, of that devotion, and really experience the reality - because the only way you can experience the reality is to become real yourself! As I said, reality has no shape. It need not have any shape. Because it does not have "generation." It does not generate and it does not degenerate. Because it's real. And therefore, to be able to be, to be able to perceive it, to be able to be one with it, is the only way to become real. And I mean it's such an incredible thing to look at it from that perspective.

Because, wow! Everybody has concepts. If there's 8500 people in this hall, there's 8500 concepts. And it's 100 percent that two concepts don't meet. Maybe they might be resolved, or seemingly look like they are the same things, but they are going to come from different sources. Because we are all different. And yet, are we supposed to be all different? I don't know how many billions of people are on this earth, but are we all supposed to be different?

And yet, what makes us different? It's really something, because you look at it. And every country is fighting a nationalistic war. There is this whole scene going on everywhere. I know that when Westerners come to India, they are made fun of - very much so. And when the Indians come to West, they are made fun of. When white people come into Africa, they are made fun of. When Africans go to America, they are made fun of. There is a whole nationalistic war going on everywhere. Somebody might be smart enough to come out with an answer, saying, "Oh yeah, because you see, God has put us into different continents, and has given us different complexion, and has given us different features and so on and so forth," okay?

What about the Canadians? They're having a big one this time! The French Canadians want to have nothing to do with the other Canadians. And I'm not saying that this should be the justification of Mr. Trudeau to say, "Listen, stop the war, because you're all Canadians." No. But it's like that's not one problem of Canada. Believe me you, it isn't. That's the way it is everywhere: so much separation, and separation and separation and separation and separation and separation and separation.

And do you know what that indicates? Isolation. You want to isolate something in your life. And you peel away, peel away, peel away, peel away at the wrong things! You want to get to the source. You want to dig and dig and dig and dig till you hit the heart of the gold mine. But

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you peel away everything that you can to be able to hit home, to be able to hit that source.

And this world has done that for so many, so many, so many years. The whole World War I1: I mean now people are going out and gathering information and making documentaries about World War II.

All the people who are sitting in this hall are listening - or, I hope they are, at least listening to what I'm trying to say. And also the satsang is being broadcasted simultaneously through a phone line to about seven different cities in the United States, and also in some places in South America, and some places in Canada. (Well, hi there, you guys!) But the thing is that we listen, and we analyze.

You know when I just said, "World War II," I'm pretty sure people went back. People have seen those documentaries. We start to analyze it, analyze it, analyze it, analyze it; think about it; think about this, think about that. But what we have to really do to gain the purpose, to get at the purpose of what this satsang is all about, to grasp the whole meaning of this satsang because satsang is not verbs. Satsang is not …

You see, this is the thing. Satsang is not what goes through this microphone into the amplifier, mixing board, and comes out the speakers. It's not what goes into your ear, resonates your eardrum, tickles your brain and you hear something. Satsang is an experience. And that's what you have to get at. Because if I wanted to, we could take a tape recorder and just plug it in. And there it would be. Or you could make a random voice generator, and it would just make voices, just make words, just make sounds, just make sentences. And that wouldn't be satsang. Because there is an experience that has to be transmitted, that has to be conveyed.

And so, okay, the example that I was giving about Second World War: So much happened. So much happened. So many people got killed. So much was learned. So many "advancements," so-tosay, were made. And now we live in this century. And still, what is everybody trying to prevent? What are the governments trying to prevent? What are people trying to prevent? A Third World War! So what does that mean? That means …

When somebody says, "Where is John?" and you answer, "John is holding the ceiling," that automatically indicates that the ceiling is falling on John and he is holding it. When you say that they are trying to prevent a Third World War, that automatically does indicate - at least it does to me - that man has done something so wrong that that inevitability of that Third World War is pushing on their heads, and they're just trying to stop it, prevent it, stall it, or slow it down.

So what are we doing that's so wrong? I mean after all, we're just building a few nuclear warheads. And after all, we are just building a few guns and airplanes that can destroy things just like that. I mean, you look at it. And there's so much ammunition in Russia, and so much ammunition in America, that they can't possibly use it! You know why? Because the earth is only so big, and there is only so much that they can destroy of it!

But they have so much that the earth would be destroyed and there will be just nothing left. And yet, there would be still maybe something left to destroy something else. I mean, what is mankind doing? To those intellectuals, what is happening in this world? Why is the pendulum starting to tick the same old way it did before? What is happening? Why is it, overall, the same thing?

It's like you're listening to a record, and the record is scratched, is broken; and you hear this one line. And all of a sudden it repeats itself. And then it does it again, and again, and again. You can let that go for a few minutes, for a few times. It's like, "Oh, maybe that's the way the song is." Right? But when it starts doing it again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again - too many times - you know that the song is not that way. Then you get up, and you do something about it, such as give the turntable a little shake so that it moves on, or take the needle off and replace the record, or do something like that.

What is this humanity doing? The record has been beating the same way ever since - from a chin we had that went like this, and noses were flat, and we walked like this (like a gorilla) - it's been beating like that ever since. And isn't this intellectual humanity smart enough to understand there's a beaten record that is playing again and again and then again, and that maybe somebody should take the great or small - whatever they are -

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pains to either give this a little tap, move the needle, or do something! And obviously it's absurd!

When you look at it from one perspective, this is the way this world is, and this is why I'm saying it's so unreal. Because you look at it from one perspective and everything is just great. Oh yeah, transportation: You have automobiles, you have airplanes. And I mean, talking about airplanes, coming over here I flew in the Concorde, and it was really something. Because here was this tiny little thing. And I got in it. You know, always before when I've flown from New York to London, you land, man, and you're really tired. There's a real jet lag. And the reason why you get a jet lag is because the cabin pressure for five or six, seven hours - whatever it takes you to get here - is at 8,000 feet. And so your body is for six, seven hours, at the pressure of 8,000 feet! Your body thinks that it's at 8,000 feet. But in this Concorde, you're at about 6,000 feet, and it only takes about three hours and fifty minutes. So you land, and it's all fine. Man has that convenience.

I was reading a book before I even got on the Concorde, and it was how America was developing all these different kinds of jets that were bigger, faster, and had more range and all this junk, whatever it is. And here it is! "Fantastic." I mean, every time somebody talks about the Concorde - okay, there's a lot of criticism about it. But people do end up saying, "Man, that is a sleek-looking thing." Because it is a sleek- looking thing. And there it is. And I'm not going to say anything, because people do have their questions and doubts or whatever they are about the Concorde.

And then we look at it. "Oh, man, look at it: Man's gone to the moon. Man's gone to the Mars."

Can you imagine that first man who made a movie? You know how he made it? He took about seven or eight different cameras and lined them up, and then took the plates, the shutter plates, and put scotch tape on them, and put them across a bar. Okay? And then he had this guy on a horse run. And as the horse broke every one of those scotch tapes, the shutter took the picture. And so it was just like they had seven or eight pictures as the horse ran by in every different position. Then he put it in this circular cylinder and moved it, and if you looked straight at it, it looked like the horse is moving!

Now here Michael's got a CP16, which is a very, very advanced camera. You can put the sound on it right away, and this and that. And when you look at a thing from that angle, it all sounds fantastic. But when you look at it from this angle, that that CP16 is a heavy camera and he has to carry it on his shoulder and it does not give him any peace and satisfaction, it's a completely different story.

When you look at it, Concorde is fast and this and that, and it's incredible, it's great. But when you look at it that it does not give anybody any peace or satisfaction … And that is what we are all trying to pursue. Okay? So that's one part of this whole world.

Now let's come to the part where we come in, as premies, as Guru Maharaj Ji. Looking at all of what I have said, imagining that we have, by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, Knowledge. We have, by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, Guru Maharaj Ji, and the opportunity to be able to practice satsang, service and meditation. I mean, there is nothing beyond that. That Love, that affection - it's a feeling. It's a real feeling. There need be no one person coming onstage and telling us that. It's just there. And we all know it. It's just so incredible.

And when we really meditate, and when that confusion goes away, when that confusion starts to disappear, and things just start to open up - when, by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, that sun starts to shine in our life - when all that beauty just starts to open up, man may just stand there and gaze at it, and have no words ever for that Mercy, for that Grace, for that Love. Because the words don't exist; just that incredible perfection of Knowledge, of Guru Maharaj Ji being here, of Guru Maharaj Ji being able to give us satsang, of us being able to perceive satsang, being able to have that chance, being able to have that moment so that we can see Guru Maharaj Ji, hear Guru Maharaj Ji, practice Knowledge.

Because all I can say is of my experience. And it's such an incredible thing. Because, to me, there was Knowledge - and I'm just putting it in a very simple and a very flat way - that there was Knowledge. And it was incredible.

And then there was Guru Maharaj Ji. And that was incredible.

And it was like, which door do you

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take first? You do satsang, service and meditation, and then comes Guru Maharaj Ji? Or is it the other way around: Guru Maharaj Ji, and then satsang, service and meditation?

And I've tried it both ways. And I ended up the other way, where it was like I tried satsang, service and meditation and then Guru Maharaj Ji. And you know what it was like? It was like watching a movie backwards. It was all there, but it didn't make sense. This is my experience. When I placed Guru Maharaj Ji first, then I need not even do anything, because when Guru Maharaj Ji was there for me, when I had in my life -

It's more like this: When I had given the life, connected the life to Guru Maharaj Ji, then satsang and service and meditation sort of became pals, became buddies. We just walked around like this all the time: satsang, service and meditation on top of you. And I mean you couldn't even shake them off. You just couldn't even let go. Anything that you did: service. Anything that you said: satsang. And anytime you took a breath: there was meditation.

And you try to do it the other way and it's more like, satsang - you know, you're grabbing onto that. Service: grabbing onto that. By the time you get satsang all tamed up and put down in one place, service splits. By the time you get service down to yourself, meditation splits. What I just said - it's true! It happens like that.

Maybe someday you will really sit down and listen to satsang. And there goes the service. You won't do anything else that day, because you'll be just stoned, just completely stunned: "Oh, beautiful satsang." Then maybe the next day you will do service, and you will be so blissed out by the experience of service that you won't do meditation or satsang. And then maybe one day you will sit down, and you'll have an incredible, incredible experience of meditation, and no satsang, no service. And a lot of people - man, I've just seen them. There are a lot of people at the end of the line who are going: (gasping). And what's your trouble? "Well, I can't do satsang, service and meditation. That's my trouble." And it's like trying to baby- sit …

And of course, it's because of mind. Mind is like an incredible force that as soon as satsang starts manifesting for us, it completely pulls us away from service and meditation. I mean, it's like a ring around our head, just one side is touching. So you can imagine, most of the ring is this way. When you move it this way, this side is touching, but this part is over here. When you move it back, the front is touching, and the back is bulging out. And so that's the kind of scene that's created! And then mind just takes off, and mind just does everything. Mind will do some amazing, fantastic things that you've never heard of, you've never seen. You would have never believed it, that that was possible. But mind will do it.

You will even sit down and mind will show you this light, you know - with your eyes open. And you will see this light, this great light, this incredible, brilliant light. And you will follow it, and follow it, and follow it, till you're so in tune with it, that that's all you want to do. And as soon as you have come to that point, it disappears! Gone. And all of a sudden you find yourself hanging from about 5,000 feet up in the sky, going, "Whoops!" But that's the way it is.

Mind will do some fantastic things. Like I used to say, mind will even come up to you and say, "Jai Satchitanand. How are you doing? How's your meditation? You should really try to do meditation. If this doesn't work for you, why don't you try leaning back, you know, and then try it? And then your hack will he straight, and the energy from your back will be able to flow through your head …" and make all these logics.

You see, you know why I'm telling you this? This is not just jokes or nothing that I'm making up. 1 get letters like this! That's why I'm telling you this. "Guru Maharaj Ji, sometimes I feel if I just lean back a little bit, my experience of Knowledge gets really incredible. But then it goes away real fast. Could you tell me - what should I do?" And I mean, it's funny how outrageous, what incredible tricks mind can play.

It's like that one example that I always give. It's like your ironing. And mind can even play tricks like this: I know that a lot of people, in the United States at least, have fire detectors in their house. Just a little machine about this big, and you just put it on, and then they're really nice because if there is any smoke or anything, even before you can smell it or detect it, it'll blow off the alarm. And in those, they have a little red flag that pops out if the batteries are down. And it's like never in your lifetime, if you were to go to a restaurant, if you were to go to a movie, if you were to go to a vacation

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place, if you were to do anything else in the world, would it even occur to you. But as soon as you sit down to do meditation, you would like to check the flag to see if it's popped, to see if the battery is okay!

Or like the ironing, for instance. It's like, if you are a married couple and say you are the husband, and you never do laundry - all you do is you get up in the morning and you have your job and you do your work and you come back home and you're tired, or whatever. You go to satsang, and then come back and sit down and do meditation. And you never have to do anything about laundry. And yet, at the time of that meditation, maybe one day you will say, "Oh, I hope my wife didn't leave the ironing on, plugged in." And I mean, why? Why does this happen? And this is a good question. And I feel pretty sure that a lot of the premies would like to know why does that happen.

Because you let it happen! You also have, just like I have, the potential, that energy, that opportunity to not let it happen. And that's only possible by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace.

And it hurts me, you know? It hurts me because I see that these people are just losing it. And they really don't need to lose it. And they really don't have to lose it. But they're losing it. They're really, really trying to make Knowledge a part of their life. They're just making a little square for the Knowledge, so the Knowledge can come and sit in, so the Knowledge doesn't interfere on a day-to- day basis, Knowledge doesn't interfere in day-to-day things. It's just something that you do. "Join the club, kid. The club is called 'DLM.' " Or whatever.

And that really gets me, because I see that here you are alive. You have a life. And I'm not saying that you have to give up whatever you are doing, either. It's just, make a hole for that, not for Knowledge. Let Knowledge come, and completely fulfill your destiny, so that Knowledge can come and completely soak you, drench you, wet you, and take you there where you really belong, and not go "ring-around-the-rosy" all the time, not just go around and around and around - but to be able to get to that destiny.

I'm here. That's my purpose. And I'm here to help you. And I want to help you, because I love you. My help and my love for you will always be there. But maybe it won't work for you if you have your door shut on me.

This is the thing. Guru Maharaj Ji never shuts his door on anybody. But people shut their doors on Guru Maharaj Ji. And when that happens, man, it's not worth it. Because the reason, the only reason for this body, the reason why apples grow on the trees, the reason why these flowers have bloomed - these ones, or this one or the reason why we are all here, or the reason why the earth is still rotating, or the reason why there is the ocean, there are the stars, there is a universe, there is everything, goes right down the drain when we shut our door on Guru Maharaj Ji.

Who are we? Have we ever looked at ourselves in the mirror? Oh no, I'm not talking about the reflective mirror. I'm talking about the true mirror. Have we ever looked at ourselves in the true mirror? Really, really seen ourselves? Oh, not our nose. I'm not talking about our nose, our beauty spots, our eyelashes, our hairs, our eyes. I'm not talking about taking your aftershave and splashing it around, or you sit by the thing and you make sure that you got all your hairs when you're shaving in the morning. Or you get your lipstick together, for the ones who use lipstick.

I'm talking about the mirror of life: the true mirror. Have we ever looked at ourselves in that? No. We never have. And when we will, someday, by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, we will find that we are no more than just a tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, tiny, very, very tiny speck of dust. Nothing. But everything. Everything so beautiful. Everything!

So tiny that it doesn't even matter. So tiny that it doesn't even exist in a ratio. And yet so big. And yet so incredible, that even the Lord himself comes for that tiny speck of dust. Maybe one, maybe a thousand, maybe hundreds of thousands. And so that's how tiny, and that's how great we are. But it all depends. If we slam our door shut …

I mean, we can slam our little door shut any time we want. But can you imagine if the Lord slams his door shut on us? Of couse, we would never be able

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to compare it. Of course, we will never be able to know it. The only reason is because we really don't know our size. If we really knew our size, we would find that just the suction of the door closing can devastate us. Just the suction. You don't even have to get hit by the door. But just the slamming and the movement can make us just - poof! - disappear.

And premies, it's not now - not in '78, not '74, not '82, this century, Concorde, Rolls Royce, Mercedes, halls - that brings Guru Maharaj Ji into this earth. It's you! It's premies that bring Guru Maharaj Ji into this world. And does Guru Maharaj Ji ever come into this world for himself? There is no reason to, because there is no point to. And yet, the only reason why even Guru Maharaj Ji is Guru Maharaj Ji, is because of you. And when you come, and when he comes, and when we all come, we make the most beautiful garland.

Then the mankind doesn't stink anymore! Then people love each other! People know each other. There is no hate, the genuine hate. There is Love. The Love fills, just completely fills, everybody's heart to the every speck there is.

And to imagine for even a moment such a world, such a universe … Maybe to some people it's impossible. But to me, it's almost like I've seen that, and I can see it happening. But premies, just remember that it's your effort, your little effort, that's going to really bring it together for you, that's really going to make Guru Maharaj Ji happy, because you will be happy. Because you will have then realized and fulfilled the destiny. The speck, that little speck, then would have become everything, because it would have merged with infinity. It would have then merged with the most incredible, most indescribable thing that there is!

And so now's the time to just let go of that chitchat. Now is the time to let go of that - I mean, just even make that effort for even one moment. Just kick it! Not just sit there and it's like, "Oh, Mr. Mind, will you please now leave? Come back, come back!" Or, doing that trick of pretending your hands are stuck together. No. Just let go. Experience it! How beautiful it is, the power of Knowledge, the power of Guru Maharaj Ji. And let go of your mind.

After all, what do we pursue in this lifetime? What good is it? What worth is it? What are we pursuing? How long is it going to last? We are so blatantly and so blindly pursuing a thing that we don't even know the beginning and end of. And yet our life is there. That's us!

And yet, out of all that craziness, there is Guru Maharaj Ji. There is that thing which can save us. There is that Knowledge. And by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, everything is possible.

And so premies, that's what we have to come to. That's where we have to come at. That's what we have to realize. That's what we have to understand. Because for how long are we going to stay blind? For how long are we going to keep our eyes closed? For how long are we going to be ignorant? When are we going to do it?

And I hope that you don't do it tomorrow. I really hope so. You know why? Because tomorrow is too far away. It's just really too far away. I hope you do it right now. And maybe even "right now" is too long. Now! You know? It's like, there it is. It's just, make it or break it. That's you. You. Individual. Every one of you in this hall has by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace that power, that strength, that incomparable strength; the strength that can even defeat mind in one stroke, that most incredible strength. And Guru Maharaj Ji has given us that Knowledge. And that decision is ours to make now, to surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji, to let go!

There is no point for us to pretend that we are adults, when in our real life we are babies! I mean, it's like so incredible. Wadi, Premlata, pretends that she's a mama, and she has a baby. And she has to take care of this baby. And the baby is sleeping, and baby is this. And I mean,

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she is very intelligent. Sometimes I call her "grandmother," you know. I say, "You're like a granny, Wad!" And then, all that pretending, all that intelligence, all that learning, goes right out. And it's just like, "Mama!"

And to her, maybe she does that every day, every day. To us, our one day is one lifetime. So till now we've been pretending, and we can go on pretending. "Oh, me, mine! I can do it, I can't do it. Too difficult for me." Or to just let go!

Just what is the point? Whose game is it? Who's asking you to play it? Who wants you to play it? Do you even know your opponent? Do you even know the rules of the game? No. Let go. Surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji. Just even for a second feel that experience. And it's beautiful. It's incredible. And believe me, it's incredible! I've experienced it. It's just such an experience. And we can do it.

And so premies, it's really incredible to talk about that experience, because it is so incredible. And as I said two days ago, "Very soon we'll be saying it's the last night of the program." This is the last night of the program! And it all goes by so fast, because it's beautiful. We love each other and there's a real bond; there's a real connection. We want to see each other again.

And I hope that we do see each other very soon. And really, things are starting to perk up for Holi, and I sincerely hope that you'll be able to make it for Holi. If you don't want to get wet, then you can stand further away! But I sincerely hope that you will be there for satsang. To me, there's no significance of Holi except satsang, that opportunity to be able to be together, to have satsang, service and meditation; to be with our brothers and sisters, to see each other; to just . .

I mean, what a joyous, what a momentous, what an incredible moment to just come to your brother and say, "Jai Satchitanand." It's such an incredible thing. "Jai Satchitanand." To that Fruth, Consciousness, and Bliss that's there: Be it praised! And it's so incredible.

So maybe we can all come together for Holi, and say "Jai Satchitanand" to each other, and to know what it really means. And if you are some confused premie, I hope that that Grace works for you a little more. Open yourself a little more so it can work for you a little more. And I

hope you're not confused anymore. For the ones who do love to be confused, don't do it. It's not worth it.

It's like Guru Maharaj Ji's saying, "Don't jump off the building; don't jump off the building." They say, "But how are we ever going to find out how it is to jump off the building?" Then they do jump off the building. Their body stays there and a quaint shadow that looks like them rises up, and they say, "You were right." And so you don't want to do that.

Just do it! There's no and, if, and but about it. Just do it!

So I hope I'll see you very soon. And I hope that very soon again we will have a big international festival, where all the premies from all over the world will be able to come together. And I hope by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace that that Grace stays on everybody. And I love you. And blessings to all the premies.

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So premies, I certainly hope you've enjoyed this program. And I hope I'll see you very soon. And I love you very much. Thank you.

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