I tell you when you surrender, when you let go, it is such a wonderful feeling. It's such a wonderful feeling, because it's like taking that mind and throwing it clear across the field. A straight home run. I mean it is incredible! Nothing happens. Nothing! And in that nothingness, everything manifests. You just get goose bumps almost to let go to Guru Maharaj Ji. And have that faith. When that faith is there and you know you're letting go to Guru Maharaj Ji, there is not a greater joy in this world. There isn't. There just isn't. Period.

Just watch Guru Maharaj Ji. That powerful hand, that powerful Grace -- I mean Almighty is an understatement, again -- just come and take everything and turn it around. Not one thing, not two things, not three, but the whole world changes. And in that instant -- when everything is a question, when everything is disgusting, when everything is weird, when everything is lousy -- it all changes. It just all changes.

Then really, in fact, nothing happens. Nothing happens. When you get to the stage where nothing happens, its incredible. Because there is always something happening. The mind is constantly cranking. The mind is constantly pursuing. The mind is constantly chasing. But then the relief is greater than a thirsty man finding water. The relief is greater than a drowning man getting saved.

I have been at times very, very thirsty. Very thirsty. I have been so thirsty that when I drank water it made me feel dizzy, so thirsty it feels like a burn from the water. Everything had been dry, and when you drank water it felt like it went back to its shape again.

And maybe most of you here don't know what it is to almost drown. Well I do. That has happened to me too.

And believe me, of all things in this world that might seem a relief, a joy, an incredible thing to you, they are nothing. They are like eating ice cream that's gone bad, in comparison to when you let go. Because when you let go -- you see you can only let go if you have faith. You cannot let go if you don't have faith. How can you? First of all you have to have faith to let go. And when you have that faith then you can let go and then that moment arrives when you do let go.

God, it's just outrageous! There is no description. Really, I can understand what it means to have no heat, no cold. No sun, no moon. No day, no night. It doesn't matter! Irrelevant! And as a matter of fact, so irrelevant that you don't even know about it. It's all weird; it's all absurd. The existence then really becomes infinite.

That's when you get first born into Guru Maharaj Ji's world.

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When you get born in Guru Maharaj Ji's world there's nothing like it. There simply isn't. All the factors of this world disappear. Guru Maharaj Ji takes over. Guru Maharaj Ji takes over. The mind disappears. Guru Maharaj Ji gets filled in. Guru Maharaj Ji comes in and it's just such an experience. Centuries and ages of injustice to this

body by mind - day after day of injustice - and finally Guru Maharaj Ji comes with his sword of Knowledge. And it's like this fortress. And the mind is the army inside of it. And the mind goes, "Don't give in. Don't give in. Don't give in." And Guru Maharaj Ji goes, "Listen, you haven't got a choice. This fortress desires so much to be

Prem Rawat (Maharaji) The Perfect Master at Holi '79 Wearing some malas to hide his manboobs


Prem Rawat (Maharaji) The Perfect Master at Holi '79 Wearing some malas to hide his triple chins
Prem Rawat (Maharaji) The Perfect Master at Holi '79 Wearing some malas to hide his fat guts

under the just and perfect ruler, to be under the just and the perfect king, to be under the just and the perfect master.

And it only takes one second. You drop one door, you open up one door, you take that one step, and Guru Maharaj Ji goes, "That's all I needed. That's all it was:' Then from there, that's it. The mind is just quartered off. And that happens. That really does happen in our life. And that can happen in our life.

Okay, our effort is there. We sit down and we make a commitment. "O Guru Maharaj Ji, please, I really want to surrender. O Guru Maharaj Ji, please let me surrender. O Guru Maharaj Ji, take it."

And I mean, that's coming so close. When that really is coming from the heart, that is coming really close. And the mind kicks in, "How about tomorrow? Does that seem like a nice day? Take me tomorrow, Guru Maharaj Ji." All that effort, all that recognition, all that faith that you really put from the deepest part of your heart towards Guru Maharaj Ji just disappears.

And that's how tricky that mind is. That's how evil the mind is. If any one of you here sitting in this hall is thinking that mind helps, well, you are wrong. You are absolutely wrong. Mind doesn't help you, not in the path of this Knowledge.

You want to see what mind does? You want to see what mind has done? Look at this world. It is the pure product of that King of Darkness. That's it. Look at it. Is there one single thing you can give this world credit for? That's what mind does to every one of us.

By simply having Guru Maharaj Ji's Knowledge we don't get a couple of wings and a round circle that lights up at nighttime on top of our head. We don't become angels. No. Nobody is an angel.

As a matter of fact, like I said, maybe nobody is even a premie. But that's your decision. That's your question and you have to answer that. Are you? Is that effort there? Or if it isn't, are you going to make it? And if you are, then when? These are some good questions. Not tomorrow. Tomorrow definitely doesn't come. It doesn't …

All the gifts, all the precious gifts that Guru Maharaj Ji has given us -- life, the opportunities, the love, the kindness, the shelter, the mercy -- and what have we done with it? If there is a definition for a sinner, don't you think we qualify the best for it? On a very flat basis, not on a conceptual basis. Simply knowing that this life is given for a purpose and that purpose is not

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being fulfilled.

Oh no, not because you ate a black candy. Or didn't eat kosher food. Or didn't go to the church on Sunday morning. Not based upon those. But based upon a very simple fact that you came in this world for something and it's not being fulfilled. It's not being done. It not being accomplished.

But it's so beautiful. Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Sinners first, please. I am not here for the people who are already saved. I am here for the ones who are drowning. I am here for the ones who have committed sin. The people who are holy, the people who think this and that -- I've not come for them. I have come for those that really need me. Now"

That's what Guru Maharaj Ji is for. For all of us. For every one of us. It doesn't matter what we have done, who we are, where we are. Guru Maharaj Ji has the mercy, has the kindness.

And there is only one thing Guru Maharaj Ji is saying and asking of you. There's only one thing Guru Maharaj Ji's asking of you. Guru Maharaj Ji's not asking, "Turn the world upside down" He is not saying, "Climb the Mount Everest." He is not saying, "Eat all the snow in the world." He is not saying, "Drink up all the ocean water."

He's just saying, "Have faith in me."

And how difficult possibly do you think it can be to have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji, who has revealed us everything? How hard can it be? Conceivably how hard can it be?

You know, not very hard at all.

And it's such a beautiful saga, ifs such a beautiful story. That doesn't mean that we have to keep on going in this world and keep doing the sins and the crimes, and, you know, all that. But just to surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji, to have faith in -- implicit faith -- in Guru Maharaj Ji is what Guru Maharaj Ji asks.

"If you are a sinner, if you think you are doomed, if you think you are no good," Guru Maharaj Ji says, "then you are the first on my list."

And for all those people that go, "Oh Guru Maharaj Ji, oh yeah man. How about salvation, huh? How about liberation, huh?" Guru Maharaj Ji says,"Go. Go away. First find out that you don't need all that. Become a devotee. Become humble. Realize what you really need. Then come to me and I'll give it to you."

That's the way I see it that the story goes. Not the other way. "Oh yeah, Guru Maharaj Ji, here I am. Give

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me five and the Knowledge, too. Okay Guru, I'm jivin', I'm jivin: It's all happenin'." That sound keeps happening and all of a sudden it has a little more echo to it and then all of a sudden it becomes very distinct that it is coming from down drain. Then Guru Maharaj Ji says, Have you had enough? You think you want some more? Here it is. Come out."

I am not saying anything new. This is what I've said in Prem Nagar. I said that when we get stuck in that mud and we can't go anywhere -- we have tried everything -- Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Look. I am for those who are …" I mean, imagine a hundred jeeps in a field. And fifty of them are trying to get out. Do you really think the tow truck is going to go to the fifty that are trying to get out or to the first one that's stopped, knows it can't get out, and knows the absolute essential necessity of that tow truck?

You don't call a tow truck until you know you are stuck. Before that, you slam it in reverse and slam it in drive and slam It in reverse, try your wedge in, try pushing and throwing rocks under the tires and putting boards in and … everything. And when you say, "Oh no. There is no way out,"w hen you have even made it worse, when you have sunk all four tires in the ground, when your tires aren't even touching any more, when your drive shaft has even drilled a hole in the ground and all you're sitting on is the gas tank or something like that, then Guru Maharaj Ji comes and says, "Anybody needs help?"

And then Guru Maharaj Ji comes, and says,"Okay, what seems to be your problem?"

You say, "Well, it quite obvious, I'm stuck. Help me."

Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Fine." He starts pulling it out. And then there is another clincher, you see. Then you go, "Hey, wait a minute, don't do that. Don't do that. Don't do that. Don't do that. You're gonna ruin my car here. You're gonna ruin my fancy fifty-thousand dollar Stutz."

Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Listen. I have pulled plenty of these out. You just sit tight, go sit in the car, and relax. When I tell you to, put it in drive and drive away."

And you go, "But, but, but …

And isn't that the story. "You're gonna ruin my fancy fifty-thousand dollar automobile." Guru Maharaj Ji says, "You think this is expensive? I've pulled even more expensive out!" Who hasn't Guru Maharaj Ji pulled out? Guru Maharaj Ji says, "Look, I have pulled out

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everybody. What are you?"

But if you will never give me that faith to go ahead with you, then I won't. Because yes, I need your love. I need you and I am here to save you. But two things make a clap, not one. You have to let go, too. So I can pull you.

And so premies, we have to let go. Look. Its very straight. It isn't like you have five, ten, fifteen, twenty, thirty options. You are stuck. And when you are stuck you are stuck. Your tires aren't touching the ground. The drive shaft has bored hole in the mud. You are stuck. And no problem. Guru Maharaj Ji isn't saying, "Now that you are stuck then you've had it." Guru Maharaj Ji's saying, "Okay, now here I come."

They have lifeguards. And Guru Maharaj Ji is really the true lifeguard. The true savior. Completely

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pulls you out and gives you that clarity that we all need, takes you out of that rut that we all get into.

So premies, there is nothing else. There is no other 'and', 'if', 'but,' 'listen' There isn't anything like that.

This has really been a beautiful program. And in a few weeks I'll be leaving for Europe. And that's where the next Holi is going to be.

Till then, there is something we can do. Have that faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. Give Guru Maharaj Ji that love. Be in Guru Maharaj Ji's agya and not in mind's agya. Why don't you start now? I mean, when are you going to start? Start now. Start now to be in Guru Maharaj Ji's agya. Start now to have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. Start now to love Guru Maharaj Ji. Not when you are sitting on your death bed going, "I wish I would have loved him." But now.

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