Prem Rawat (Guru Maharaj Ji) / Hans Jayanti Festival / Kissimmee, Florida / November 8, 1978, evening

To me I pray, Oh Guru Maharaj Ji. You know, you're almighty. You can do anything. What can't you do? What is there you can't do? Please protect me. Please. You know, give me right direction. Please help me. You can do that too. You have the potential. Oh Guru Maharaj Ji it's not like you have two hands, so you can only do one thing. You're sustaining the whole world. Maybe you could sustain me too. You are all merciful. Your mercy covers the entire entire world. And in this world keeps on doing sin after sin after sin after sin after sin to you and you still give it mercy. Maybe you would add on my sins to the whole sin and give me another mercy. Keep me under your umbrella.

You know, Oh Guru Maharaj Ji you are all powerful. There's nothing you can't do. I know that you can save me. I know that you can let me go too. But I pray to you as humbly as I can that if you find it in your heart, in your mercy in, your compassion to save me, please could you, could you please make sure this both boat gets to the other side. You know please prevent me from jumping off the boat. Please help me and it's just like, okay, this all sounds, maybe to some people it would sound stupid. What's he trying to do, you know, what does he say? But to me it means so much because this is exactly what I feel in my life. To me, not a joke. To me, I'm not kidding. To me it's not a you know a magic mantra because I know that I see that in my life. That vast umbrella off his mercy. That Guru Maharaj Ji that is capable of destroying this whole world by just blowing at it merely. … look, if you've got any concepts that that's impossible, put it under your seat and sit on it for a little while. You know. It is possible. I feel it's possible. I know it's possible. Because that Guru Maharaj Ji has the power of generation, of sustaining, of destroying. It is not only what I feel, but even in scriptures it's written Guru Brahma, Guru Vishnu, Guru Devo Maheswara. It's everywhere.

And "0h, Guru Maharaj Ji, you know who am I, really, to even request?" But, but you are everything and can I please even request to you to help me? Because I know that I am full of mistakes, and I will make mistakes and I will keep making mistakes. But you are full of mercy. To you, there are thousands. To me, you're only my only one. You are the only thing that I can have in this life and that I can have with in if there are any lives beyond - I don't know. I'm ignorant. You sustain me now. You will sustain me always. But but could you please even just look at me? Could you please even just accept me? Could you please even, you know, anything? Because you are all-powerful. You can do it.

And I know that Guru Maharaj Ji has saved so many in this world who would be completely drowning into that river of maya, who would be completely drowning and wouldn't even have a word to say help, whose throats would be stuffed with maya, whose whose whole life would be choked up. And Guru Maharaj Ji has even come and helped those. I know that there are premies right now present in India who used to critize Shri Maharaj Ji, used to come in the back and yell when he was giving satsang. And he has even saved those.

You know, 0h Guru Maharaj Ji I know your arms are full with all your devotees, with all your creatures, with all your creation. But could you please just fiddle me in somewhere, just put me in somewhere so I can be on your boat? I don't you don't have to give me a room. I'll stay on deck, you know. But all this prayer in our lives goes to maya. All this prayer in our lives goes to our mind. And mind is not going to give us that mercy that Guru Maharaj Ji is going to give us. Mind is not going to save us like Guru Maharaj Ji is going to save us.

But even to have that prayer. I never say it out loud. But even to have that prayer in my heart. Maybe if I repeat it one billion times, one zillion times, maybe half of it would get to him, somehow. Instead of being as sure as writing a letter. I know that, I know that, what can we do in this life? How can we surrender? How can we get rid of mind? How can we do anything in our lives? But you can't just stay with the question. There is also an answer. Guru Maharaj Ji can help. His Grace can help you. Then you have to pray to your Guru Maharaj Ji to help you, to to give you that Grace. And then that Grace will come, that protection will come. You know. There is an expression that people used to say to Shri Maharaj Ji. "Just make me the dust of your feet.

0h Guru Maharaj Ji, how fortunate is your tilak that you put on your forehead. And yet I would never want to be that, because sometimes you wipe it off. 0h Guru Maharaj Ji, how fortunate is your ring that you wear all the time, but I would never want to be that. Sometimes you take it off. 0h Guru Maharaj Ji, how fortunate are your shoes that you you walk on them. But I would never want to be that, because sometimes you take them off. 0h Guru Maharaj Ji, I want to merge with you. I want to be something that I never leave in my whole life. Because what is there for me in the other end? I've already ruined it so far this world is concerned. I've already ruined it, so far mind is concerned. And if you let me go, there is no other place except to the pits for me.

This next section was not printed in the transcript in the Elan Vital Volume II Issue 4 Winter 1978

Ram turned around to Hanuman and said "Hanuman, the service that you have performed for me, I'm very pleased with it. Ask whatever you want. If you want liberation, I will give you liberation and Hanuman said, "What would I do with liberation. I don't want liberation. Okay, liberated are people who are fortunate but I don't want liberation. I want to be always be with you. I want to always come whenever you come. So I'm always with you. What is there in heaven when you are down here?