Kim O'Leary discusses her crippling anxiety in a Self-Help Book without mentioning Prem Rawat

AnxietyWhat was the result of those decades worshipping Prem Rawat: Years of Anxiety and Therapy

O'Leary has written a Self Help book drawn on her own life of decades of crippling anxiety and years of therapy once she was dropped from performing at Rawat's speeches to the ageing remnant of 1970s counter-culture dregs who flocked to His feet to bring Peace to the World. Prem Rawat's teachings promote a Catch 22 situation, he assures his devoteees that they could and should experience an enlightenment realization by meditating on His Knowledge and worshipping Him and if they don't it's all their own fault.

Pre-publication testimonials to her book by friends and associates that stress the positive include "This book is a practical how-to guide for managing anxiety, drawn from a rich life of trial and error," "Kim gives autobiographical snippets to validate the often isolating feelings of anxiety that many people experience." Kim's anxiety and depression were well documented in her song lyrics for those who chose to look closely.

Kim O'Leary used to perform to thousands of devotees of Guru Maharaj Ji (aka Prem Rawat). They sang along in ecstacy or trying for it, knowing each word and meditating over every note … in theory at least. She had a promising career but threw it away to sing the praises (literally) of a fat *, 14 year old Indian fake-guru, probably the most ridiculous and unlikely guru ever known to man, or woman. Her songs were the soundtrack to Divine Light Mission's worship of the guru, she was Maharaji's Mournful Minstrel singing songs of yearning and hope.

Prem Rawat & Kim O'LearyShe then spent decades using up her talent, writing and singing songs of desperate devotion and yearning for an "experience" that never quite eventuated and being paid peanuts for her "Service" until she was replaced by His daughter, a younger, less attractive and less talented singer. Daya Rawat, now sang O'Leary's songs of adoration to Prem Rawat, the most famous (or infamous) person you've never heard of.

O'Leary knows if she stopped working for Rawat's organisation willingly or unwillingly but did reveal she was given a lump-sum payout. This could only be a fraction of the worth of her contributions to Rawat's success and wealth. As one former devotee who spent a decade in Rawat's ashrams and another 20 years living the full devotee life of satsang, service and meditation wrote:

The music of One Foundation served as a proxy for my heart and it accurately reflected the teachings of Prem Rawat at the time. If Kim was a misery minstrel, it was only because she served as a clear conduit for those teachings and my condition as a premie: a basket case beggar who was nothing without the grace of Guru Maharaji. Prem Rawat's cult indoctrination dictated that the best position to be in was that of an empty-cup beggar desperate to be filled with Guru Maharaji's grace, love and protection. Kim did an impeccable job of channeling what I and thousands of others were feeling.

* This reference to his appearance is not meant to offend but to bring attention to the guru's poor life choices and unhealthy lifestyle possibly caused by anxiety and depression due to the stresses of his role.