Kim O'Leary - Threatens to Sue for Misrepresentation

Kim O'Leary has threatened to sue the writer of this site for misreprentation. I have publicised her role as the most important singer/songwriter involved in Prem Rawat's Divine Light Mission and Elan Vital cults. I have written that she was a talented song-writer and ballad singer - sometimes a bit off-key in uptempo songs and lacking in that extra oomph for rock. I recall her singing in satsang meetings in Australia as early as 1973. I have used as evidence of these claims that she wrote songs, sang and recorded them on at least 13 professionally recorded and distributed audio tapes and CDs for sale. She performed in or had her songs used on the soundtracks of at least 16 videos or DVDs publicly distributed by Rawat's organisations. These were all productions of organisations and companies associated with Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji aka Maharaji. She may wish to have her public involvement with Rawat hidden but her public role and her contribution to the success of Prem Rawat's hold over his followers was so important that it goes against the public interest not to expose it. Her role was not insignificant and without it being written about no understanding of Rawat's career is really possible. One of the main reasons (IMHO) that Rawat kept a core of devoted followers were her songs and the songs of few other talented "premies" such as Lindsay Field and Geoff Bridgford being probably the most iomportant ones.

For 20 years Prem Rawat claimed he was the Incarnation of God, the Perfect Master and Lord of the Universe who demanded worship. He claimed He could bring World Peace and peace and bliss in the hearts of His followers through His Divine Grace if they obeyed him and surrendered to Him. Kim O'Leary's lyrics reflected and reiterated her Master's teachings and theology in shorter but intensified form. They were somewhat short on the bliss and definitely leaned towards the longing, fear of abandonment and unworthiness of the premies but always wrote of His perfectness, divinity. Prem Rawat was the Giver and Keeper of Her Soul, Her Everything, the Only One Who Loves Her. (Lindsay and Kim Field on left of photo on right. All 3 marriages in the household ended in divorce)

one former devotee who spent a decade in Rawat's ashrams and another 20 years living the full devotee life of satsang, service and meditation wrote:

"The music of One Foundation served as a proxy for my heart and it accurately reflected the teachings of Prem Rawat at the time. If Kim was a misery minstrel, it was only because she served as a clear conduit for those teachings and my condition as a premie: a basket case beggar who was nothing without the grace of Guru Maharaji. Prem Rawat's cult indoctrination dictated that the best position to be in was that of an empty-cup beggar desperate to be filled with Guru Maharaji's grace, love and protection. Kim did an impeccable job of channeling what I and thousands of others were feeling."

You Are My Perfect Master
The answer to my every question always comes from you, You are the giver and the keeper of my soul, The answer to my every question always comes from you

Wild Night
Wild night let me discover your end, Let me go you must abandon me, I'm wounded by you fire, I need redirection, sweet correction, And love to take me higher

How Can I Ever Stop Loving You
Your voice is just like music to my ears, Singing to me of all the real things my heart longs to hear, Bringing to me the perfect love to wash away my fears, Taking me home, taking me home

Teach Me Devotion
If you want to wander and roam, Go on, go on, Till you're tired and you want to come home, Come home, come home, back to Maharaji, Maharaji holds the key
Our father has come to lead us along the path of perfection, He has come to make us understand why we're alive, He is pure and his love is deeper than the ocean,
He is taking control and making us all one
And we're asking please, please, please teach me devotion, Oh Maharaji please show me, I'm ready to start, I can see that your love is deeper than the ocean, Come and take control and make us all one

Always There
And I know that you're the only one, That walks upon this earth, Than can teach the people how to live in peace, Cause you reveal the source of all the love I ever wanted

What Have You Done To Me
What have You done to me? All I can do is hold onto each drop of Your Grace, What have You done to me? I feel like Your baby I feel like Your mother, And I feel like it's time to surrender

Maharaji I am bound to You
Maharaji I am bound to You, In love and devotion, You have saved me, Really from the deepest coldest ocean
Maharaji I am lost without You, Afraid to doubt You, Too in love to turn away, Maharaji You are the only one who loves me, Regardless of my imperfections

Oasis Of Love
If I should ever lose sight of You, Please find a way to open my eyes again, Fell into a heavy dream a long time ago, God only knows the kind of shape it got me in

You Are My Everything
Angels will come to love you showering harmony, They will gather to serve you for a moment of your company
Who am I to ask you to turn your gaze on me? What could I possibly offer to you that would make my love become worthy?
Lovers with radiant faces who worship the ground where you stand And the souls of many travelers will rest in the palm of your hand

When Rawat encouraged a more Indian and devotional from of worship in the 1980s, O'Leary responded with new songs:

Leaving Your Lotus Feet
Leaving Your Lotus Feet, Oh where would I go? Who else has the Holy Name to purify me? Who else loves the weary and the weak?
Who else the power to free me from Maya? Who else showers such a love so sweet? I am yours Oh Lord, my Guru Maharaj Ji, Please make my surrender complete

Apani Hasti
Those who lose themselves into your Lotus Feet, They please You, Oh my Lord with their surrender complete
Even though hardships, poverty and troubles come to them, They are welcomed as gifts from your Holy Lotus Feet

Guru Maharaj Ji, He Is Our Divine Father
Guru Maharaj Ji, He is our Divine Father
We are His children, He's come to tenderly gather
Only at His Lotus Feet And there we shall be forever
The love of Maharaji Keeps this world spinning round
He is the purest vibration No-one as pure can be found

How Beautiful Are The Feet Of Him
How beautiful are the Feet of Him Who brings the message of Peace
And gives the Sacred Knowledge And brings the Sacred Knowledge, The Knowledge of eternal love
How beautiful are the Feet of Him Who brings true love to the earth

I Belong To You
I belong to You Take what is Yours forever
You are no stranger in my heart, You know that we have both been waiting, anticipating, this moment
You belong to me, We can no longer hide our love
I am no stranger in Your Kingdom You have Created me, so carefully And I belong to You now
I need Your love Just so I can go on living, Wrap me in your love And write Your Name all over me
So I can tell them I belong to You now

When Rawat demanded all materials demonstrating Indian and devotional forms of worship be destroyed and kept secret
O'Leary responded with new songs that were similar in feeling but uncontroversial and did not mention His name or His divinity:

True Love
I want to dream the highest dream, Where my heart can fly, Far away far away, Through the endless sky

Find the Endless Love
Find the endless love inside of you, It's there inside your heart, Right inside your heart, Find the endless love inside of you

Caught in the Magic
Oh caught in the magic again, Just for a moment, Lost in the magic again, Where heavenly music, Is back in my heart again

I Need to Feel It
Contemplation, I've been thinking tonight about my life and I need to feel it, I need to feel it
Life carries on, I need to go where it goes, I need to see what it shows

Of course, all the people who'd been listening to her songs for years knew exactly what the subtext was. Her behaviour was caused by Rawat's demand for obedience and surrender to his agya and his ongoing wish to attract new recruits to his cult, by stealth. O'Leary knows this just as all long-term "premies" or People With Knowledge as they call themselves do. When she left her position in the cult there was no onus on her to talk about her years as a Cult Diva but she tried to keep it secret through lies of omission and false biographies. Writing a self-help book in which she talks about her years of crippling anxiety without mentioning that she was a close devotee of Rawat's for decades who claimed to teach meditation techniques that produce peace and bliss takes this whitewashing a further step into deceit. Of course, it is not illegal to try to hide parts of your life, even when they are the most important parts of your life but similarly it is not defamation to reveal the truth. It makes one wonder why she is so determined to hide what she was doing for 30 years.

What was the result of those decades worshipping Prem Rawat: Years of Anxiety and Therapy

O'Leary has written a Self Help book drawn on her own life of decades of crippling anxiety and years of therapy despite practising His Knowledge, being one of the very few of His Followers who actually had personal contact with him and performing at Rawat's speeches and festivals. She was one of the young people who flocked to His feet to bring Peace to the World in the 1970s. Prem Rawat's teachings promote a Catch 22 situation, he assures his devoteees that they could and should experience an enlightenment realization by meditating on His Knowledge and worshipping Him and if they don't it's all their own fault. Pre-publication testimonials to her book by friends and associates stress the positive include "This book is a practical how-to guide for managing anxiety, drawn from a rich life of trial and error," "Kim gives autobiographical snippets to validate the often isolating feelings of anxiety that many people experience." Kim's anxiety and depression were well documented in her song lyrics for those who chose to look closely.